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About Me Member Emotional Poet AngelsWillFallFirst19/Male/Netherlands Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Months
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The CollapseI am cursed with a mark of instability,  As all of a sudden I collapse,  Hit with an unsuspecting strike,  And fox fangs striking in my back.  The horns of the ox hurl me through the air,  While as soon as I fall down I get cut in two by the fury of a falling spider,  Suffering from deep wounds as I scream between its twisting fangs…  Poison and degeneration, bleeding and deprivation,  Cause my death as I fall down under the frenzy of the blades of steel… The Collapse
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My Fist, Mouth, And ScarsBroken while I thought it was ok this time,  Bleeding in my heart and head while I thought that this time it was legitimate to call someone mine…  What I am thinking now,  Will this take me out?  All the defences I ever built, will this burn them down to the ground?  There is no more pain to show you, I can only scream this out,  The thought that I'm losing you makes me sick as I hit the ground….   
AAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Honey, did you hear that sound?  Sorry, but that was me, and it was unpolished agony I shout,  I thought there were no more way to kil My Fist, Mouth, And Scars
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Why So BlindThose kisses don't come out of nowhere,  The messages on your cell in the middle of the night aren't made out of lies,  Stop saying that you don't deserve her, she says you do, you can read it right there!  Quit pulling yourself down, and face the truth, you can read it in your girl's eyes..   
Why can't I see,  That while I despise myself she wants and loves me,  Is it so hard to believe somebody falls for you,  That they see the good things in my soul which I fail to do,  She loves me, she is sweet, beautiful, so kind,  Why can't I understand it, why am I so blind?   
Love is there Why So Blind
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The Dreams In Which I'm DyingI am walking down the road as lightning is tearing up the sky  And all I see are maimed faces,  Empty places…  This is very hard to tell you,  Knowledge that makes it even hard to breathe,  This is not my world, you are talking but I do not speak your languages,  Why can't I just shrink into nothingness,  disappearing into worn out places…  I find it rather funny, but also find it rather sad,  But the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had..   
Why can't I just go back to the time when no one knew me,   All those eyes just looked past me, looked right t The Dreams In Which I'm Dying
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My Words for YouFor You   
i am sorry its not enough  i can only say i love you  i have wanted you for a long time  i wish i could be there   
its alot of what if's  but you need to know   
always all ways  i love you  i want to show you what i can give to you  that you mean so much to me   
i would have said yes  i would have fought  
i would have kissed in the cold  never letting go   
of you   
Always All Ways My Words for You
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In your handsIn your hands   
in your hands you cry  in your hands you have cuts  blood and tears  pain and hurt  all fade away with the bruises you left  
as a curse   
in your hands you gave back the key  to my heart  you said  your a fool  i dont love you   
you stepped on that bridge  a bridge of life and dreams  and you took the jump  to the river  of death   
forgetting all about her  letting blood drip  tears run   
sadness despair and in your hands  all I can see is your face laughing at me In your hands
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Finally You Can BreatheFinally You Can Breathe   
I once held your hand in the snow covered streets  I came on a plane and saw you standing there  We became something special  
 
and then it happend  she came back and told you how sorry she was  and I cried and I screamed  I once held your hand in the snow covered streets   
I see your happy...well you never should have given me false hope  see these are the words I cannot speak  this is not to hurt you   
its to prove how much I love you and care about you  you know I am always here, but you have her now   
forever changed no Finally You Can Breathe
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PainPain   
biting lips  oh how i love the taste of that red dark blood  even though I know its wrong...i continue to do it  it gives you a high...instead of sex...i use pain  i use blood...i cant stop myself  i just go ahead and bite my lips  each time...going deeper   
and deeper   
 
 
deeper   
until i cant feel no longer...until the pain is gone  then i have to start again...waking up to monday morning  and faking it for everyone Pain
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And this is how I died,

Tue Feb 9, 2010, 2:55 PM
Its over.
again.
Her parents were against it.
and nothing could make them change their minds.
she did not even want to fight for it..
I wanted to do everything...
even my mother wanted to help me, telling me to write a letter to her parents, and that she would do the same, and that we would invite them to come and talk to us..
But everything I said was denied...
When I asked her if she wanted to fight for this with me, together...
She could not even say yes...
She couldn't..
That hurts the most..
And tore my heart apart.
I could have answered that question with YES! within a split second, even if it were my parents..
This tears me up into two..
I was willing to sacrifice everything for her...
EVERYTHING...
I thought the feeling was mutual...
All the times she said "Ik houd van je/I love you" did not mean anything?
Was it not worth fighting for..
Was I not worth fighting for...
Is it that hard to say yes..
To at least try..
This time I won't recover.
All she had to say was yes...
Just that single word..
Am I not even worth that..
Not worth a bit of effort and energy..
I am worthless..
I knew it all along...
I'll just cut myself open tonight.
With a bit of luck I will hit a major vein and it will all be over..

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  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: my tears falling on my desk

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~Poetrylovergirl22 2 days 22 hours ago
hi your writing is amazing you should no ;p

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~Poetrylovergirl22 4 days 2 hours ago
i just need to know...do you want me gone forever

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~Poetrylovergirl22 Feb 2, 2010, 4:37:20 PM
ok i am sorry that i got you mad

but i self esteem issues ok? can you not see that

if you want me go i will

~Bella

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~Poetrylovergirl22 Jan 31, 2010, 2:59:45 PM
im so sorry

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~AngelsWillFallFirst Jan 31, 2010, 9:54:20 PM
Its ok hun, stop worrying about it so much.
We all have one of those days from time to time =)

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When something is not worth dying for, it does not automatically mean its worth living for.
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~Poetrylovergirl22 Feb 1, 2010, 2:54:23 AM
im really sorry


runs away

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~Poetrylovergirl22 Jan 27, 2010, 3:32:56 AM
thank you so much for reading "Predictions" and "An Understatement" your words mean alot to me :hug:

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~Poetrylovergirl22 Jan 12, 2010, 8:34:11 AM
thank you so much for the fave on "Pain" it means alot :hug:

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Sara Alexandra :blackrose:
i am a monster inside
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~fightingtheworld Jan 12, 2010, 4:08:01 AM
eeeh dankje voor de watch, maar ik schrijf niks meer hoor xD
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~AngelsWillFallFirst Jan 12, 2010, 4:21:29 AM
You never know right? =)

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When something is not worth dying for, it does not automatically mean its worth living for.
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